Amelia started her Day camp today. She's been too excited today and we've had to remind her to stop and take deep breathes and calm down. She's talking too loud and having trouble transitioning. She is listening to us, which is different from before.
I keep having migraines this week, I really wish it would stop. I haven't worked much this week because of the headaches. That gives me a headache, too. The weather has been changing and I get migraines when the barometer drops. The stress of Amelia's diagnosis I'm sure hasn't helped.
Amelia keeps grabbing me today. Grabbing my arm and wanting to hold my arm close to her. I guess I need to ask her about her feelings when she does this but, its so annoying all I want to do is get away from her! I need strength to remember what to do and forget about getting away from her. David, God bless him, tries to get her to let go of me, but she usually just holds on tighter. Sometimes I just can't stand it then I get very anxious and I have to get away from her to stop my heart from racing. It's a terrible existence, but it's my life and I hope someone is laughing, I'm not. Life is hard and sometimes its cruel.
I feel like my life is hard more than it is easy. I'm tired of trials. I want some of the good things in life. Right now it seems like way too much.
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